I end up being consumed by depressive thoughts and lots of body scanning. I hate it.

RussianCow 3 days ago | parent | next [-]

Maybe your exercise can be to direct your thoughts elsewhere. Start with 5 minutes instead of 30 and actively try to think about something else when your thoughts become too negative. I can't guarantee it will help you but it's a sort of meditation that's worked for me when I felt like my brain wouldn't turn off.

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dwaltrip 3 days ago | parent | prev [-]

Sounds like your body is telling you something?

Time to find support that you trust and face whatever is going on under the hood.

For me, the three major turning points were quitting my job, later starting somatic therapy with the right therapist, and then finally getting diagnosed with ADHD. Good luck to you :) wish you the best

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johnisgood 3 days ago | parent [-]

Well, I have MS and I have muscle spasticity, spinal hyperactivity, etc. The feeling of not having control over your body is terrible.

	▲	dwaltrip 3 days ago \| parent [-]
		Damn, I'm sorry to hear that. That sounds very difficult.