I’m having a time parsing your comment: you’d consider suicide because you are far away from the people you love? (i.e. you have something to look forward to)

The times I have felt suicidal were when I had nothing to look forward to. Having a little person to care about that I miss so much to break down crying just thinking about them is motive enough to go through hell twice just to reunite with them.

> [...] and being incredibly jealous that the man who replaced me gets to experience “my” family life every day.

I think he's going through a breakup.