You're losing out on the "inconvenient" getting lost experiences, which it appears you are focusing on, as well as the "serendipitous" getting lost experiences.

Sounds like you had a bunch of bad times getting lost in the past. Maybe you're just not particularly open to new experiences.

> as well as the "serendipitous" getting lost experiences

I'm glad other people have had such lovely "getting lost" experiences but I never have so I don't have any kind of good feelings for it. Getting lost has always been inconvenient for me