Even if you're Fabrice Bellard, you can't compete with how fast these models are. They'll run circles around any human.

I don't know what else to tell you other than you should try the models again and update your assumptions.

A year ago I thought LLMs were trash. This year has been a completely eye opening experience.

Do not be so stubborn that your opinions are unshakable. Something exceptional is happening and it deserves just a little bit more of your attention.

it's fine it can run in circles all it wants, i just want a calm, stable life with purpose (no running an llm ain't it)

One year ago LLMs weren't trash, in one year you'll find that they aren't miraculous either