1. I am full of anxiety about layoffs (engineering role), my org is shifting at a rate and in ways I’ve never experienced, and the job market is scary;

2. I have dropped all of my hobbies and most of my homeowner responsibilities to go all in on AI, to make sure I stay ahead of [1];

3. I am spending a lot of time in Claude Code, Jupyter, and more things like this;

4. I am creating a bunch of interesting coding projects (see [3]), which is cool - stuff I wouldn’t have had time for before and that I’ll probably use a few times more;

5. I’ve set up some fun hardware to hack on LLMs and do ML stuff (3, 4), which is cool and aligns with my interests but it’s not fun at all because I’m forced to do it;

6. I’m on antidepressants and anti anxiety medication now, which is nice;

7. I’ve lost some weight which is nice, but I didn’t mean to. It’s going great, if wealth was measured in repositories I’d be bill gates.