this guy is resigned to feel worthless compared to other mathematicians (suggesting he become cannon fodder in some type of mathematical sacrifice. i wonder if that analogy even makes sense in the field xD).

but, he desperately wants to become a great mathematician who creates completely original work.

from my experience, people tend to or even want to limit themselves. they think they know the ceiling of their capabilities and it becomes some self fulfilling prophecy.

if you really care about doing something great like this guy does, don't limit yourself. push until you achieve the greatness you want to achieve.

it's like that one saying, aim for the stars and you might land on a cloud. you will be surprised at how capable you actually are