I've been asking myself this question in the last year:

> Why do I want to make music?

I picked a basic DJ controller and a midi controller bundled with Ableton. I'm a novice, but I love listening to music and dissecting what makes a good performance. I crave that feeling of getting chills when I find something new that moves me in new ways. This set was a pretty recent example:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gfF8jzBVWvM

That being said, the world is increasingly crowded with "good enough" music.

I resolved early on that I was never going to make a money doing this, which simplified things greatly. There's a primal part of our brain that craves adoration. I do wish for others to adore my music. Even if it's a handful of people. I do wish to perform publicly one day, even if it's at a park for passersby.

Mostly I just want something to move my brain in different ways. I want to create something beautiful.