Hey, I get the feeling. A couple years ago. I worked in a massive project where delivery pressure was high and affected the quality level that I strongly felt was necessary. I remained there for a while, did my best to compromise and improve the general situation best I could but it took a big toll on my health.

In retrospect, three things helped keep me sane-ish:

- community: finding colleagues that shared my perception of the situation and with whom to organise to raise quality.

- perspective: my country, like most, has a bloody history. My predecessors survived feudal exploitation, industrialization and countless wars. None of them were exceptional. While this falls under survivorship bias, the challenges we face and the opportunity we have are, in the core western world, comparatively simpler

- preparedness: keep a cheap lifestyle, my passport up to date, money in the bank, gas in the tank and my body in as good a shape as I can. It's more of a psychological trick to feel in control of some aspects of my life. But it's a good idea in general anyway.

Writing about my fears and transcribing them from my head to a sheet where I could confront them and organise them helped too.

It's not great or original advice, but I wanted to give it anyway so that you know that other out there go through similar mindscapes. Good luck out there.