It sounds like you don't have motivation to keep up with the changes of the AI state of the art. That's fine. Don't.

But motivation in general? Let it find you. When you see "hey, I really want to do that", well, that that's motivation. You want to do that. You don't have to manufacture motivation - you have motivation.

And once you have motivation, if you want to experiment with using an AI as you do it, that's fine. If you don't, that's fine too.