>> But AI has sucked the joy of the craft even in my free time.

I agree, and you are not alone. Those who love the craft of programming are forced into a weird situation, and that's where AI sucks away soul.

Perspective and patience changes many things. Work on altering perception by taking workshops, classes, volunteering, reading, poetry, etc. Whatever as long as it's something you haven't experienced before.

Also, I think it's okay to work on your own projects without AI slop-coding. This is how we learn, by doing. There is still expertise to be gained.