What do you do? You realize that neither you nor your family have gotten over your addictions to food and shelter and you exchange your labor for money so you can support your addiction.

Your company never hired you to “code”. They hired you to use your now 20 years worth of experience to either make more money than it costs to employ you or to save more money than it costs to employ you.

My advice is to “touch grass” get off of your computer and don’t make your job your identity. If you got hit by a bus tomorrow, your job would send “thoughts and prayers” to your family, have an open request for your replacement before your body got cold and only think of you when your name appears in a “gif blame”.

Turn off your computer - go to the gym, spend time with your family and friends and realize there is a life outside of computers.

Source: Professional developer for 30 years and before that 10 years as a hobbyist. I have never in the 30 years since I graduated from college written a line of code that I haven’t gotten paid for

I was a fitness instructor part time for the first 15 years as an adult and a runner, stop for 8 years to take care of my (step)sons and enjoy my marriage. With my children being grown, my wife and I travel and just hang out (I work remotely) and meet interesting people.

There is so much more to life than pecking at a computer.