I guess I don't understand what about any aspect of what I explained gave you the impression that I might not have put what I learned into practice.

This is going to sound like I'm fucking with you, but I'm deadly serious: if someone taught you how to do something and you later learned that that person was actually an LLM masquerading as a human, would you forget what you had learned?

It's actually not impossible that you've hypnotized yourself, or could be experiencing a trauma response.

Of course it's traumatic. It is undermining the value of my knowledge and skills in a time when the economy is extremely rocky and I'm afraid for my future