TLDR, go to therapy; you are a people pleaser.

Sadly, it’s a societal issue as we are told to be X or Y. Boys wear blue and hang with the fellas. Girls wear pink and have tea with the ladies. Go to college, get a job, get married, have kids, die.

No one is ever like climb Everest, surf in Indonesia, backpack Europe, get lost in the wilderness.

I am pretty sure backpacking, surfing, scuba, free diving, rock climbing etc are what everyone does to try to be interesting.