There are no gods ... the very concept is incoherent. There are, rather, narratives that our brains create (or that are provided to us) which can seem very convincing, especially if the verification processes in our brains are turned off or bypassed--as happens during dreaming, with some drugs, in trance states, from social pressures and practices of some cults and churches, etc. And even our normal conscious verification processes can be fooled--overcome by illusions and "hallucinations", misperception, déjà vu, etc.

> I don’t know if everything happens for a reason

Another incoherent notion--events are locally caused, but there are no free-floating global "reasons". Aside from the sense of physical causation, reasons are intentions by intentional agents, e.g., we offer reasons for our beliefs and actions. Lacking an accurate metaphysical framework can apparently cause one to seek "God" via a tank of nitrous oxide that results in taking the narratives one's brain generates as being inherently veridical.

I align with your thinking.

I find the question of the existence of god a nonquestion. Invented looking for an answer in a space without one.

I think it stems from our incredible ability to learn, and struggle to unlearn.

However, I think we are on the verge of having an understanding of the universe in which learning will be seen as a fundamental part of physical reality.

Where gods are to the people who have them as real as they think they are. Only that they are real in the space of their minds, and no where else.

Given this, I think we’ll soon see the gap between our incoherent internal reality and coherent external reality narrow.