Well, I've reached the end of the book.

I like the systems mindset in the book. I think it's great to introspect and try to debug your own self.

Starting from pages 31-33, I found some interesting things. This book is the product of an internal fight. It's lucid in places, and those are the most interesting. In other chapters... my takeaway is that you can't always come out on top when fighting yourself, but you still have to try.

I was really rooting for the protagonist, there:

>Instead of treating the events like a delusion and having to fight them, I chose to work through them—choosing to believe that somehow I was shown something.

>By treating it as real, working through it as a real problem, I was admittedly taking a gamble. I could totally succumb to my delusions and get stuck in the worlds of the Yoshu and the Mechanicals.

>It would be easy. What I found instead was opportunity

The parts of the book I liked the most are those that break free from Yoshu. The rest breaks my heart.

I'm sorry to hear you were heartbroken.

I assure you I've seen people who are worse than me turn out much better than me and I hold hope that I'm on a good trajectory.