I am neurodivergent, I have experienced exactly what your saying myself for my entire life..

I know the feeling, and to assume I dont/have "always had a way" because I found a way out, iss a very victim way of living.

My advice still stands, look deeper. If you want to sit in a hole and repeat how there's no hope, you can, but it wont do anything.

You arent different or special. You have hope. I didnt have it easier, I fought harder