This year, I got engaged to my favorite person on memorial day. Then yesterday, my fiancee said she actually doesn't want to have kids, despite being the only man ever she had considered having a family with. So it was a whole night of turmoil, and tears, and we slept in separate beds for the first time last night. I guess we are parting amicably. She says that I will be a great father someday and I guess we are breaking up, even though we still love each other. I'm not taking this news well.

I'm sorry to hear. I don't know the reason why your financee don't want kids.

I have been very hesitant to have kids for a long time for many reasons. My wife have been wanting to have kids, so have felt quite conflicted.

Then this year I read the book after the spike which put a lot of this in perspective which made the thought of having kids less daunting somehow.

https://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/after-the-spike-dean-spears...

I wish both of you well in how you navigate the path forwards.