It's like being tortured to extract information that we do not have. They'll only believe it once they've completely broken you down.

And then you meet the next person, who has not yet tortured and broken you, so they again do not believe that you "don't have the intel", and you get to go through it all over again.

The worst part is when you start believing for yourself that they're right, that you're holding back, and that it's all your fault for not giving them what they want, just for the life of you you can't figure out how.

Getting certainty about my condition did so much to heal me.