> and don't beat myself to a pulp for not having "it"

Sounds like a stage of brain development I haven’t reached yet :)

[sent from my steady state of pulp]

The work never ends, friend.

Try this. Think hard about what you think "it" is. Is it CEO? Making $1M a year? Making $5M a year? Healthy family? Etc.

I think what you realize in the brainstorm is you have some of "it" already. But something's missing.

So, then ask this question: can you change your situation to attain that missing thing? If so, how? And if you aren't doing that, why? Ask why again. A third time.

Inaction is a very easy way to get stuck overthinking "it" when you might get that thing just by changing/trying your situation to the best of your ability.

I am articulating what seems linear but in reality its messy and not very linear. It's work and it's trial and error.

But more than ever, I'm ok and comfortable with the construct of my life. I don't make anywhere near what I hoped to make. I'm not an executive. I don't now think that I NEED (and am missing) those two things to fufill my life. (those are examples, I have others)

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disqard 6 hours ago | parent [-]

Thank you for sharing your work!

Years ago, at a mindfulness meditation retreat, I heard the word "skilful" used in a very specific way.

Since then, I've tried to become more skilful, and your reply above really evinces the "ongoing journey" nature of that work.

I wish you the very best in your journey!

	▲	grvdrm 5 hours ago \| parent [-]
		I like that. Appreciate your words and likewise. Great way to put it: "skill" Learned/experience/must practice the skill of getting comfortable! Tell me more about retreat? In overall terms? Worth it? Worth doing again? Also - did it include any substances? Not judging one way or another but I know that some psychedelic concepts align with some retreats.