Thank you so much for writing this. I have a feeling there's way more of us that we realize.

I have lived very similar to what you're describing during a few periods in my career.

> it goes over my sensory limit (which varies a lot)

This line hit home. Some days I feel randomly very "thin" for no apparent reason.

> When I get home I am beyond exhausted. Can't sleep because of anxiety or adrenaline or something.

This is the worst and it doesn't make any sense so nobody understands when you explain it to them. With anything else autism related ymmv but CBT-I is the best tool I found for this. It didn't totally unfuck my sleep but it at least made it a tenable balance.

I didn't really have a point in writing this I just found your story touching and my heart goes out to you.

I'd love to interview you (anonymously or by name) for my blog if you'd be open to that. You can contact me at d+rjoshcs+immons@+gm+ail+.com (remove the + signs, my crappy attempt at bot-defeat)

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