Xanax, Zolpidem, Belsomra, and a fifth of your favorite.

Nitrous oxide, ketamine, buspirone (not buproprion), gapapentin, abilify, lamigtal.

No alcohol.

Also look at your environment and its stressors. Moving out was one of the best things I did for my mental health.

My food can touch without me melting down, so I'd consider it a win. This is not medical advice.