> then why wouldn't you just commit suicide?

I'm trying not to upset the people around me.

Please, and I say this with love, seek psychological help. If that's the only thing from stopping you, you need to talk to someone.

	▲	r_lee 6 days ago \| parent \| next [-]
		Agreed, but I would say talking to someone isn't a magical fix here. OP, I would be interested in knowing if that's the case, why are you posting here on HN, getting up in the morning, doing the things you do etc? Are you depressed (if so) in a physiological or psychological kind of way (because of something external?) I will say I am not doing too well, but still, if I look at things objectively right now, I'd still rather wait and see what happens in this world rather than choosing nothingness. My rock bottom is someone's heaven
	▲	vkou 6 days ago \| parent \| prev [-]
		This is good advice, but needs to be bookended with through research about your rights, and the consequences of discussing this with a medical professional, and all the various ways in which you can be fucked over. Because there are some incredibly serious consequences to it.