Ok, Addams, calm your undying tortured bdsm unicorns.

> That provides the best and most reliable feedback. Reality outside myself.

Guess you were lucky to find your awakening consciousness in a reality that is worth mentioning. I wasn't. My family is worth being kept a secret. But that epiphany came a little too late.

> I have ADHD. It’s not ever going to be corrected. ADHD permeates the brain.

There once was a guy who could only kick a ball with his right foot. It was never corrected. But he learned to kick the ball with his left foot anyway. He became one of the best. ( I might have switched right and left, but given the context, it barely matters. ) He became one of the best, ... not the least because a certain kind of growth hormones helped him a) fulfill certain conventionally established standards that were worked out by a community of 'economists' ( whatever the fuck that is ) and medical professional and b) outgrow developmental signals.

So, ... you are not "just" ADHD, ... you are above your genetic ADHD baseline. Meaning, despite the pure influence of your developmental signals, you have benefited from either your psycho-social environment alone or and or a chemical substance that entered your metabolisms just in time ...