I love learning and until recently despised teaching. I felt like a double agent nodding along at all the lies my teachers told me while I mastered the material almost in spite of the teaching instead of because of it. This became a real problem I college when the material was no longer a given. There were going to be people who flunked because the material was just too hard.

I have always been a C+ student of rote memorization at best. Almost enough to be good at trivia, but not enough to do well in coursework. I am always trying to build a Theory of a System from practically word one, which is the fifth stage of learning, where rote is the first.