Hm yea. I also feel something similar,

maybe just thinking or being internet heroes doesn't matter. Maybe the real change happens at leaving the house.

But I wonder, if that is real change too. Like, maybe the system is so fucked up that even that wouldn't have an impact. Should I invest my energy into such a gamble? maybe, there is no right answer. a part of me who has watched movies and watched good guys win makes me want to say yes but uh reality says otherwise for the most part.

But maybe reality happened because there are people who are on the fence like me who said nah, noone else would do it, then peer pressure happened and welp nobody did anything and that became an evidence for the next generation who can again say nah and the cycle of suffering repeats.

But can this cycle truly change with just the will of one person like me? I doubt that my presense makes a change.

I have started to think that the best way I can make real change is maybe by open sourcing / working in a non profit / maybe helping them with some linux expertise in my community since I love linux. I can set up self hosted stuff for them so that they can control their infrastucture. I can reduce their costs from these bloated app subscription hell holes, maybe help these non profits and donate to the right causes and work on fixing my life too. Does this make sense?