I realized some time in middle age that I have to convert formulas and equations to steps and things happening to something "passing through" each step—to algorithms. It's painful and slow and also the only way I stand a chance in hell of reading mathematical writing.

That's probably why math writing largely makes me feel dyslexic, while programming came naturally. And why I hate Haskell and find it painful to read even though I understand the "hard" concepts behind it just fine—it's the form of it I can't deal with, not the ideas.