Thank you :) and you're definitely not the only one.

Full transparency, the first backend version of phrasing was 'vibe-coded' (long before vibe coding was a thing). I didn't like the results, I didn't like the experience, I didn't feel good ethically, and I didn't like my own development.

I rewrote the application (completely, from scratch, new repo new language new framework) and all of the sudden I liked the results, I loved the process, I had no moral qualms, and I improved leaps and bounds in all areas I worked on.

Automation has some amazing use cases (I am building an automation product at the end of the day) but so does doing hard things yourself.

Although most important is just to enjoy what you do; or perhaps do something you can be proud of.